Apr 14, 2012

Marriage in the Media

One in 10 marriages will fail within the first five years. Fewer people are marrying now than in previous years.  And according to Glamour magazine, "more than half the births to women under 30 now occur out of wedlock." MORE THAN HALF!

Think about that.  More than half of the children born today could possibly not know their father.  Amazing.  This is not how God designed marriage.  This is so surprising--but is it? Look at what society is saying, the cover of magazines displaying each new Hollywood divorce. 

God you are bigger than all this.  I pray that you would put Godly men and women in the lives of these newly born babies, and mothers.  Help them to see you.  That you love them, despite what they have done.  And that you have designed marriage and motherhood in a specific way, not to limit us but to protect us.  Father we want to honor you with our actions, help us to obey. 

Aug 23, 2011

Not about trying harder...about seeing Jesus better

I feel sick.  You know that kind of sickness when you realize you will never be good enough.  That deep down feeling, like wow I am the worst of the worst sinners. Like Paul says in 1 Timothy 1:15 "Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst." 

That is me today....after eating a bunch of chocolate ice cream to try and cover up the hurt.  It didn't work.  I still feel awful, and totally broken. 

It's amazing the things we as women try to do to cover up pain and sin....like yesterday I went shopping. Maybe the "retail therapy" worked for 10 minutes, but it was quickly replaced with the guilt and shame that I just spent money that could have been used in other ways.  Or maybe if I workout harder, and get my body more physically fit--then, then I will be truly happy.  Or maybe if I watch reality t.v. I can pretend that my life is their life, and even if it is only for an hour I can remove myself from the junk that I am dealing with. Or if I was just smarter...or nicer...or friendlier...or prettier...or (you fill in the blank for yourself________)....

nope. don't feel any better. don't feel any more satisfied with buying stuff, or perfecting my image, or pretending to be in a fantasy world and ignore reality.  nope. sin is still here. and I have to deal with it.

I fall into the same sin the Pharisees did...that if I am "religious"enough, then God will point down and say, "Well done my good and faithful servant." If I work hard enough, then God will bless me.  But that is not Biblical...that is religious.

A verse that is just amazing is Romans 9:16 "It does not, therefore, depend on man's desire or effort, but on God's mercy." What an amazing Savior.  What an amazing Counselor.  It all depends on Him.  Not on me, not on you--but on Jesus.

It is not about my effort, or doing all the "right things"--but "my heart and flesh may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." (psalm 73: 26)

Psalm 42:2 "My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.  When can I go and meet with God?"

Jesus thank you for your unending grace and mercy.  I pray that you would remove me, remove us.  Get me out of the way so that I may see you better....I want more of you Lord and less of me.  

Apr 12, 2011

Tenth Avenue North Song

Lord help me, help us.  I question what you are doing with my life.  Over and over again.  It's as if I trust only in the good times and question when things get rocky.  Give me a child like faith.  I believe I know how to run my own life.  That somehow I am sovereign and know better.  Help me to surrender to you--to really LET IT GO.  Help me to TRUST you, to actually 100% believe you have a plan for my life.  That You have control.  That you have provided in the past and you will provide in the future (not necessarily in material possessions but in providing everything I need, and being the true source of my contentment and joy).  

Father forgive me for my disbelief, for my arrogance in believing I can do it on my own....Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things THROUGH CHRIST who strengthens me..." Not I can do all things through myself....


Let It Go lyrics, by Tenth Avenue North

I've been holding on so tight
Look at these knuckles
They've gone white
I'm fighting for who I wanna be
I'm just trying to find security

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say you will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go.

Well it's hard enough to hear
Harder still, to move beyond this fear
We know there's nothing I can bring,
So tell me what do you want from me?

But You say let it go, You say let it go
You say life is waiting for the one's who lose control
You say You will be, everything I need
You said if I lose my life it's then I'll find my soul
You say let it go, You say let it go

What do I love?
What do I hate?
What will I lose?
What will I gain?
How do I save my soul?
What if I bend?
What if I break?
What will it cost?
What will it take?
For you to save my soul.

To listen to the song:


Mar 18, 2011

Beth Moore's Blog

"Hold tight to Jesus in the ebb and flow of this temporal world. One sweet day this convulsing earth will be made new. The skies will tear open like a veil and every eye will see. Come quickly, Lord Jesus."
-Beth Moore

love that.  Jesus is coming.  Come Lord Jesus, come.  

"I have all too often discovered myself assuming that God thinks similarly to me on a variety of subjects.

If I am in a fight, I might say something like, “Well, why don’t you pray about that?”  Hmmm, I’m pretty sure that what I really mean is, “I’m going to give you a couple of minutes to testify that you fully agree with me that God is on my side in this argument and not yours.”

Sometimes we get so overconfident in our understanding and knowledge of God that we simply assume all of our opinions are synonymous with His heart.  We seem to think that if only we knew Scripture word for word then all of our thoughts and opinions would be in continuity with God’s own.

There are so many problems with this assumption, not least of which is the sin in our hearts that causes us to, at times, misunderstand or misappropriate the Scripture that we have so impeccably memorized.  Now, this is not about disparaging knowing the Bible or memorizing Scripture. This is about resisting the assumption that if we know the Bible well we can co-judge with God." -Beth Moore

Father I pray for wisdom.  Wisdom to know you better, to know your word better, to seek you daily.  I do not want to be content with my relationship with you today, tomorrow I want to know you more deeply and show you more clearly to others.  Help me Father.  Help me to mirror you better, like wise scripturally grounded women, like Beth Moore, do. 


Mar 16, 2011

Acts 20:24

Acts 20:24 "However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me-the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace." 

Paul says in verse 23, he knows hardships and prison will face him in Jerusalem, but it doesn't matter.  He wanted to be obedient and proclaim the Gospel in everything that he did.  Whether that meant death or not he was headed to Jerusalem.  And Paul later was beheaded (most scholars believe during the reign of Nero in Rome).  He died for the Gospel.  Died.  Was killed.  The persecution I face is nothing.  But yet I shy away, I become fearful of what the world may think.  May God in heaven give us the boldness and courage to share the good news to others. 

Father I pray to make you more famous and myself less.  As it says in Romans 1:16, I should not be ashamed of the Gospel, but should proclaim it. 

When I am fearful of the world, fearful of what they think I do not find my satisfaction in Christ but rather in the approval I get from friends/parents/boss/society/boyfriend/neighbor etc.  God says when we chase the approval of men we will never be content.  Never.  Only God can satisfy. 

Jan 27, 2011

Rejoicing in the Lord

To be content in God is tough.  We can't be lukewarm in our contentment---true contentment is finding joy and peaceful satisfaction in the Lord.

Tim Keller says that "what you rejoice in is the thing that is your central sweetness and consolation in life..." Meaning that what you are joyful about is what is central in your life.  What is central in your life? What are you finding contentment in? Your job? Your marriage? Your grades? Money? etc.

Do those things satisfy? What about when you have a bad day at school, does it rock your day?
God calls us to rejoice in Him alone.

As a "type A" person I try to "do" things to show God my commitment to Him.  Sinfully I think that my works will add up and earn favor in the Lord's eyes. The apostle Paul says in Philippians 3:2 that when we try to earn God's acceptance that is dog behavior; which back then was a huge insult. 

In Revelations 2:2-4 Jesus is talking to John and says, "I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first."

Jesus says to John that He knows of John's deeds, but that his heart is what matters.  This verse really challenges me.  It's like He is saying, "I see your volunteering, your work in ministry, your good deeds, but those things are not my concern. I want your utter devotion, your heart to rejoice only in me, not in works."

Remove my pride Father, the only way I enter heaven is by your Son's blood---by nothing which I have done. Help us to find our joy in you, not in our deeds.

Jan 20, 2011

Gianna Jessen

A woman who survived abortion.   Who fights for live everyday.  Who loves Jesus.